Musings

The only emotion which comes easily to me is anger. This does not mean that I am weak in the other areas. Its just that it takes time for me to respond to any situation in a quick manner if it does not involve anger. I always tend to have delayed reactions to everything. I can remember quite a few incidents where I could not provide the appropriate response at the right time. I still think of those incidents and try to make sense of this handicap of mine. Even now, I find myself going into a sort of delayed shock. I am not able to assimilate my thoughts and put them into words-this is my reaction to the shock. I have tried innumerable times to write about something but when the time comes, I am just not able to do it. I hope this phase of life passes away and a new one comes....I can't hurry this one- as my father says, "Everything has its time, molu".

Words desert me at my most crucial moment
I know not what to do
I feel the pain that I cannot show
I share the grief...