Passing days
Finally, I defended and most importantly passed. But somehow, I don't feel ecstatic as I once thought I will be. I don't even feel I have achieved something. If I look at the big picture, I actually have achieved nothing, but I am not getting into that. Everyone around me seems to be more happier about my passing than I am. Is something wrong with me? Why don't I feel good about the whole thing? I feel all the more stupid, ignorant and more importantly as though I don't deserve all this. But that's just me..
On another note, a couple of days before this circus show of defense, I was getting very nervous and wanted to talk to my parents. My parents back home weren't exactly at home and were away. They assured me before they made the trip that they will keep in touch by taking the mobile phone with them AND that they have paid for the roaming charges. I kept calling them on their cell phones and just got an automated message saying their cellphone was switched off. Me in my usual self got all paranoid about what had happened to them. But, as someone once rightly told me, what can I do from afar. I called them on the landline on their day of arrival back home, all anxious about what was wrong with them. My parents very apologetically told me that they had made all arrangements to receive my call but they forgot the ultimate- the cell phone charger. Now what can one say to this..I sometimes think, what will I do when I reach my parents' age. My parents were not born in the computer age. They seem to be scared of all this technology. What will my fear be when I reach their age? Will I be able to overcome my fears so that no harm should befall my children as in the case of my parents? Will I be able to guide someone even though I feel infinitely stupid most of the times? Points to ponder, at least from my side, I think...
On another note, a couple of days before this circus show of defense, I was getting very nervous and wanted to talk to my parents. My parents back home weren't exactly at home and were away. They assured me before they made the trip that they will keep in touch by taking the mobile phone with them AND that they have paid for the roaming charges. I kept calling them on their cell phones and just got an automated message saying their cellphone was switched off. Me in my usual self got all paranoid about what had happened to them. But, as someone once rightly told me, what can I do from afar. I called them on the landline on their day of arrival back home, all anxious about what was wrong with them. My parents very apologetically told me that they had made all arrangements to receive my call but they forgot the ultimate- the cell phone charger. Now what can one say to this..I sometimes think, what will I do when I reach my parents' age. My parents were not born in the computer age. They seem to be scared of all this technology. What will my fear be when I reach their age? Will I be able to overcome my fears so that no harm should befall my children as in the case of my parents? Will I be able to guide someone even though I feel infinitely stupid most of the times? Points to ponder, at least from my side, I think...
