Melancholy days
I don't know why a sudden feeling of monotony has set in me. It has clung to me for more than a week and I'm starting to feel depressed. I tried to divert my mind by a cooking mania but the restless feeling doesn't seem to go away. I've been thinking for a long time now about what I am doing here. I told somebody last week that my ambition in life was to teach in a school for special children. He rightly asked me what I was doing wasting my time by doing engineering. Now, what do I say to that. I have been asked this question numerous times but I never get around to answering it. But to speak the truth, I feel I don't have the guts. I just pine for something elusive. When I get it,I will crib even more saying this was not what I wanted. I have always been a decisive person but the decisions concerning my professional life are always something which I question (don't even ask about my personal life). I wish there was a meter which would beep when we took a wrong turn on the road of our career. But have I taken a wrong turn or am I just scared that the turn which I took is devoid of light for some time?Questions galore....In the meantime I wish I become a little more level-headed and try to concentrate my attention on something else.
3 comments:
Delete the previous comment, will you? Forgot to click on blogger...as I said, gone nuts...quite appropriate.
Monotony...you have been here just for six months yet, just wait and watch what is to come!!...and regarding the meter which should beep...it might not have beeped on this occasion...it might never be too late to teach in a school for special children. Or, might it?? Unless of course, we are looking for the shortest path....
More later maybe...not really in a mood to comment!! And confessing that after writing so much...gone nuts I guess.
@PM-
I know I'm not alone...I'm just wondering which will be the right direction.I'm not sure I will ever take a right turn.
@nandagopalan
Monotony can set in anywhere,anytime..be it six weeks,six days or six hours and so on.I am too unsure about everything going on around me...& about taking the shortest path...well, i just want to keep walking on any path.I have had my share of thorns,believe me.I am not scared of the twists in the winding path..just the length and sameness of it.
This comment is your shortest, I believe...u must really be not in a mood.
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