Rebecca and me
I was reading Daphne du Maurier's Rebecca. I had read it once long time back but somehow this time around, I could identify myself with the heroine. No, I don't have some kind of complex where I put myself in the heroine's shoes everytime I read a book. But this one clearly portrayed my anxieties, worries, angst et al. I could empathise with her because her uncertainity about her position, her looks, herself in general struck a chord in me. Aren't we all like that? We tend to be a little hesitant, a little frightened about somebody who knows something more than us, a situation where we are made to feel inferior, a new place, new people (some of them really unkind)? Something happened today which made me think back to the days I had arrived here. I, leading a sheltered life back home, came face to face with some harsh realities of life. But all that is over and done with and I have learned to maneuver through them. I sincerely wish and pray, nobody else faces the kind of fear, uncertainity, low self-esteem that I went through. THAT is the reason why I care what people do and think. I try MY maximum to skirt people away from issues which I feel were uncomfortable to me. I don't think it is a bad trait. All suggestions to do the contrary are taken under advisement and will be enacted at the appropriate moment when specifically stated that the person in concern does not need an "eeyore" to worry about them. We all see what we want in a person without knowing the real face behind it. Just like when testing a hypothesis, all our assumptions need not be true, but, what one has assumed might be true at all accounts also. Why not gamble on the latter and lay all our eggs in that basket....
2 comments:
Some questions as is generally the case :-)..
1. I sincerely wish and pray, ......and think.""
On the contrary, you should actually hope everybody faces the same so that there might be a possibility of they also caring for what other people do and think. Or is it that you want to be the only one with concern for others? Or is it that you hope your caring nature will rub off on them without they having to face the harsh realities themselves?
2. ""I try MY maximum to skirt people away from issues which I feel were uncomfortable to me.""
No clue why you do this. Is it because these 'issues' continue (note the usage of the word WERE) to be uncomfortable to you or is it that you assume it will be uncomfortable to them simply because it was to you? Either way, from your previous post, I understand that skirting away from these 'issues' don't really provide you any relief, do they? Remember the secret orchard? Under the circumstances, quite surprising that you should do this.
Whatever 'eeyore' meant or whoever it referred to...All enactments are welcome.
everybody has to learn things on their own. "living life" cannot be learnt vicariously, from others' experiences. if you want people to learn and to understand, let them do things the hard way.
protection is not the answer, unless you have somebody to protect you till you die which is hardly ever the case. at some point people have to learn and the sooner the better.
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