So far away.

Life is only once. How I wish i could rewind this life. Things which are missed seem like the greatest losses. Today is my father's 60th birthday. In our society the 60th birthday is special. I missed it. I was so far away. And it wont come back again. I wonder how i would feel if all my children were far away when something special happens in my life.
I dont know if our professional duties are so important as to impinge on our family life. We become so engrossed in furthering our selves that we miss most of the important bits. And they never come back again. Never. Never again.
The tradition of a strong family life as we practice it in our country makes alot of sense when you are alone. We had a discussion today about freedom. Everybody felt that if we are educated and have enough money we can be free. Really? I am not even free to go home when I feel like. And nobody is tying me down. Its just the useless circumsatnces.
All smoke and no fire,
Stuck in this quagmire,
Hazy collections clouding the eye,
Things crawl by the by.

How to stop,
this turning top,
when the strings run amok,
winding the timeless clock.

Facets that i see,
could just be,
illusions of tear,
Wish I was there.